Two Blog Day Pt.2

::sigh::
This blog is going to be mix of topics.

Good moods only last so long, don't they? I should have figured.

It could just be the jumble of confusion I'm getting from doing homework and studying. Stress can't be healthy for you, not at all. That's all college has done to me this year, probably shaved off a year of my life from stress. I will never tell people not to go to college or some specialty school, but be sure of what you want to do, and just because you enjoy something doesn't mean you'll be happy doing it for an occupation. I've been questioning myself on switching my major, yeah, feels like a waste of $10,000. Yet others say it's just because it's your freshman year and things will get easier and you won't regret it. That's why I'm so hesitant. My major is considered the hardest in college courses, oops, I didn't expect that, I knew it'd be difficult, but the most difficult? I tend not to run away from a challenge and I haven't yet, but...
Hell, one of the only things I depend on for not going insane are weekends!

My hobbies, no...my life of the past 4 years, music and art have suffered from this constant stress machine. I tend to try to explain to others, but not many understand. Gawd, it feels like a waste of potential. Except...I'll never go to school for music or art, it shouldn't be restricted and it never will be for me. Anybody want me to make them a song? ^_-

Damn, haha, I could go on forever just from everything be affected by something else. So many things are relative to to each other. Just like that little sentence is about to bring up the next topic, yes, the last sentence of the music mumbo-jumbo.

I've felt a bit hollow for a long while now. Could it just be from school, it's takeover of my life, my loss of hobbies, my relationship status, aliens maybe? It could just be a nice soup of everything and it seems like the most logical idea at the moment. To blame everything on one thing would be stupid and illogical.

It was a comment somebody said about high school got me thinking "Wow, it's been a year since I've graduated."
You always try to keep everybody you've known throughout high school, in your school or another town, close to you, you promise you're going to always be a friend always going to be there. Well, heh, we always play favorites or sometimes it's just because of our schedules that can screw us up. I mean, just recently in another blog of mine I mentioned how I recently got in touch with an friend I've known for quite awhile. I'll probably keep talking to them for quite awhile now, at least I'll try my best too. Partially because, wow, for some of the people I try to keep in touch with it's almost no use, others get consumed in their life, and then you have a few that you can keep. It's still always going to be a little game, not as big before, of favorites, but I'm still trying to figure out who I enjoy being around and talking to, I think I'm getting closer to knowing.

::scratches head::
I think I covered most of what was going on in my head. This thing is almost near therapeutic, at least it calms me somewhat.

-Fred