Thursday, February 28, 2008

Facecicles, snotcicles, icicles.

Only if my face looked as nice as icicles instead of feeling like them.
Itsjoshbennett (2:27:43 PM): o_O

Okay, so maybe I could have chosen a better introduction.


No matter if you're a girl or guy you should check out my friend Josh's (The Innovation Of Silence) public service announcement blog. The link is to the right for those that are blind. It'll make you chuckle.
So I sit here, in a friend's room, waiting for my next class to begin at 6:40-9:30. On top of that, I'm finishing a paper and studying for math I just now have some hints to do so it can be done correctly.

Yeah, I can't slack right.
I'll talk later.

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Aches, Insomnia....and hopefully only dehydration.

Seriously, I'm all sore from something. Yesterday? The snow?
It's all I've got to blame.
Getting pwn3d by people your own size is one thing...but of course that never happens.
Ouchiez. I took an Advil not to long ago.
I'm feeling pretty good right now. No more aches, for now at least.


Last night I couldn't sleep at all. It may have been the utter rush from earlier or maybe not waking up until 1, either or. I didn't sleep at all is what matters and now it's killing me. Writing a speech didn't help either with getting any sleep. Trying to catch up in calculus tonight, studying for a midterm, and finishing a paper isn't going to help tonight either. I DID GET A 2 HOUR NAP IN THOUGH!

I was also feeling really terrible all around, no mentally, but physically drained. I was blaming it on the insomnia, but these long hours of school I have been known to forget to drink and I've gotten dehydrated before. So, right now I'm drinking a soda for the caffeine buzz and then going to drink some water throughout the night. Maybe that's just it...just dehydration.
Anyways, I'm off to go listen to some music, attempt to finish/figure out school, talk to whomever...yeah.

I may be changing my blog name.

-Fred

P.S.- I've got a few things I want to share, if you're lucky I'll post them on here.

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Snow, snow, snow everywhere...even in your pants.

I realize since it's 1:31 a.m here it's a bit awkward to talk about my day, slightly, but not too much. Taken it's now officially done. I also realize I didn't post for a day, two, or three, I'm not sure, I haven't checked. I just know it's been a matter of days and not hours. o_O

So, anyways, monday night I was friggin worried I was going to have to drive to school in slush, ice, snow, you know...the ingredients for disaster. So I get a call this morning from my friend Preston telling me that U.A canceled. Lets just say I celebrated with an intimate conversation with my pillow...until 1 in the afternoon at least.

I was woke up with my dad asking if I was going to sleep any longer, realizing what time it was...yeah, I got up in a hurry. So I got my daily dose of vitamin C with a glass of orange juice and took a glance outside. Snow, snow, snow....everywhere. Gotta admit, it was pretty, instead of seeing semis going up and down the road making everything brown and disgusting and inedible. Yes...I like to eat snow every now and then, eff you. =]

Anywho, I think it was around 5 when Josh asked me if I wanted to play in the snow with him and Kara. Because obviously it's a rule that I have to be there, I have no choice, nor do I mind. I'm about to go before I end up getting a guilt trip from my dad, but I decided to ignore it and just go. Then he keeps bitching why I shouldn't be going, roads, late, cold....blah, blah, blah. I'm about to say "Fuck it" and I did for about 10 minutes until I'm like "Screw this, I'm crazy and bored enough to go". Yeahhh, I got a couple glares from him, oh well. It's not like I couldn't go in the first place, I just hate to hear people bitch.

Initial Plan: Build Snowman
Pass:
Fail: Check

So me, Josh, Kara, and her brother end up just playing in the snow for almost 2 hours. Even though we were standing in the cold for no real reason for awhile too......
Okay, okay, besides mentioning the pictures taken there's no real way to go with explaining the snow other then it was fun, cold, exciting, and it should be done again.
The End


So, tomorrow I have to give a speech. I have been changing it a lot lately, hope the teacher doesn't mind, I really don't want to do it on anything dealing with the environment. So I'm about to go search on The Mars Volta's website for their bio to give me some information to share with the class. With that, I leave you with a video of TMV.

Sunday, February 24, 2008

I must have some lost marbles...

At least according to my family I have I few lost marbles. They don't find it a well thought out thing to front my teacher of a problem I think is evident. I mean...I was going to keep it anonymous at least. Eh, so what? We never got anything done just sitting around listening to people in the first place thinking they're always right. Heh, if we did we'd still be ' A Nation Under King ______'.

To far?
Nah, not at all.
Now for a little rant, yeah, yeah...their screen name is x'ed out.


Me I have a voice, many people listen to me, it's something I never thought could happen, but I guess I have a persuasive voice
xxxx: I could say the same for myself, but... I want people to learn on their own, or learn visually.
Lollipop Gourmet (12:12:02 PM): I would like that to happen as well...but, heh, our generation is spoon-fed
Lollipop Gourmet (12:12:10 PM): I'm not excluding myself out of that
xxxx: Of course, I don't think I could adequately explain what OBEY means to someone who can't open their mind thouh.
Lollipop Gourmet: Heh. I argue to attempt to open peoples minds
Lollipop Gourmet (12:13:53 PM): Odd, I made a girl stop being anorexic/bulemia
Lollipop Gourmet (12:13:59 PM): belemic*
Lollipop Gourmet (12:14:05 PM): w/e
xxxx (12:14:21 PM): why the fuck are you taking Chem engineering? take some Psychology
Lollipop Gourmet (12:14:50 PM): I hate psychology
Lollipop Gourmet (12:15:19 PM): I don't want to make money helping somebody out
Lollipop Gourmet (12:16:20 PM): I love to help people, improve, affect, send a message to people....for free
xxxx: To be fair- money would be a nice additive.
Lollipop Gourmet (12:16:58 PM): Not to say it wouldn't be. I don't want it though
xxxx: I dig bud.
Lollipop Gourmet (12:17:35 PM): My lack of greed baffles my family
Lollipop Gourmet (12:17:48 PM): They think I'm joking
xxxx: Same with mine, really. I'm quite humble compared to my family.
Lollipop Gourmet (12:18:37 PM): The family is like "You'll love the money when you get a job"

Me- Yeah, it'll be nice, but why do I need money to help improve society?
xxxx(12:19:00 PM): haha
Lollipop Gourmet (12:19:29 PM): Fear, Greed, Lust, Envy, Sloth
Lollipop Gourmet (12:19:38 PM): Blah
xxxx: Ayeeeee
Lollipop Gourmet (12:20:23 PM): I lust.
xxxx: who doesn't.
Lollipop Gourmet (12:20:40 PM): Fear is instilled in us by "higher" people
Lollipop Gourmet (12:21:05 PM): Greed is made common because of others around us and those higher
Lollipop Gourmet (12:21:14 PM): Envy is caused by media
xxxx: FRED

I also never knew I had so many silver dollars until yesterday when my grandparents...after watching a chinese 80's retro movie with them, gave them to me. Soooo heavy.

I
have this sudden fascination with graffiti art
I also say I'm open on this blog. Hmmm, almost, not really though.

I kinda fear a simple word can throw a whole message off.

Saturday, February 23, 2008

Bad Teachers, Creeperz, and Haircuts

I probably would have wrote last night, but after falling asleep and barely missing two IM's that were sent to me a minute before I woke up, I decided to go to sleep last night.

So, my day (yesterday), as almost any day of the week was just another bland, original, nothing new day. I went to school, did what was asked, turned in papers, and took quizzes. I'm not going to go too much in depth about a day at school that is usually the same as any other day. Though there is one part of the day at school that did stick out terribly. It's been a common practice of my math/calculus teacher to try to teach the class another subject during a quiz day. After this practice of hers has now failed me out of 3 quizzes, I voiced my opinion about it after I didn't have a respectful amount of time to finish the quiz. By the way, we're not allowed to use calculators in her class either. Which this quiz dealt with simple, but time consuming calculations she demanded be done by hand. With much of the class struggling to finish this quiz with the 20 or less minutes given I said exactly this, or maybe something close:

"It'd be great if you actually finished teaching a lesson before the day of the quiz so the class would have enough time to finish.

Teacher - "Heh, yeah.....right."

"It seems really damn logical to me."

I was probably fuming, okay not fuming, but irked about this for at least 30 minutes. I'm going to end up writing a letter to her, printed out, and put underneath her office door for her to read. What it means to her I can care less, but I have the right to voice my opinion.
Not to mention, my thinking was off for a good part of the day since we had to share our english papers with other students and the two people I shared with, excluding myself went in this order, by topic of course;

1.) Why Barbie Is A GOOD Role Model
2.) Female Genital Mutilation

Wtf, that's all I've got to say about that.

Now...onto my more social part of life.

I was a little bit late, but I end up calling Josh telling him I just got home and I was going to take a shower before I went over. Well, I get over there, give him the Obama Hope poster (designed by Shepherd Fairey) and we get ready to leave. Kara calls, so we head over to her house, and we sit around trying to figure out what to do. Her and her brother end up fighting and it kinda ruins the happy-go-lucky mood that was there. So we finally end up going to the mall, which I knew the general direction to get there...just, not all of the turns. We end up driving around to other places, messing with a van full of people (beeping, 4-way flashes) ya' knowwww, being obnoxious.
I also swore I lost both of them in a store before finding them by some washers...

After having no clue on what to do we went to Perkins' to get a bite to eat, which is where I notice I eat slow. Me and Josh end up trying to make music before we start getting glares...yeah. I also find out sugar water is not that bad at all, thanks Kara. Wal-Mart though, heh, Wal-Mart...attracts very odd people. So we're just minding our own business, while Josh is wearing a pink helmet, and this odd guy starts criticizing Josh, so with this quote "Pink is a manly color" I swear it started a conversation none of us really wanted. So, this goes on for about 30 or so minutes and he's totally hitting on Kara the whole time. We finally leave the guy and end up leaving...and leaving Josh outside. He doesn't talk the whole way home, which makes us think he's pissed, but as I read in his blog he wasn't...ass.

Anyways, yet again, I really liked this weekend and the people in it. <3

...oh, yeah, I got my hair cut today. This is excluding the crazy humor of salon. =x

Thursday, February 21, 2008

A Change Of Mood Swings

I've been looking at this blog lately, it seems to be a rather personal blog of mine. I mention a bit of personal issues here, hopefully it's not too boring.

I have an urge to turn something around, there's so many things I want to do, some for personal gain and others just simply out of the kindness of my heart. No matter for what I envision, I seem puzzled about it. It's been better than it use to be though, I mowed the hedge maze in my head down awhile ago. Even though I say I mention a bit of information in here, I'm not always going to come out and say things all of the time. Mentioning everything to you takes the interest out of the story of life, I'll guide you in the right direction, but I'm not going to sponge feed any/much information.
Hmmmm, there's not many times, even in the dead of winter and heat of school that I want to make a dedication of something to somebody. Dedications to a dead hero are enjoyable to see, but to offer some decoration for the live heroes and people of whatever part of life seems just as right.


THIS BLOG JUST GOT DETOURED. I FELL ASLEEP WRITING. To Be Continued.

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Suprise!!!

I love you. <3
Yes, I mean it. Less than 3's included.
1.) I'm very hyper right now...


Okay, now, that's not directed towards anybody in general, so don't go playing a guessing game that it's just for you. You're included, but it's a mass love. Oh yes, a mass love.

Hahaha.
Mmmm. Am I bipolar? Crazyyyy.


Today is a long day, not that it was meant to be, my classes end at 2, but I have a study session to attend. I guess I'm not to confident. =X OH YES, I LACK CONFIDENCE! Such a turn off. MY SARCASM IS MY WEAKNESS!

Well, today Kal Penn, better known as Kumar from the movie "Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle" came to Akron to discuss why he feels people should vote in this election and why exactly he supports Obama. He also answered questions that people may have had. It was great, I mean sure, he was probably one of the most famous celebrities I have met so far, but his knowledge of the campaign was really great too.

I'm not sure how many posters I'll be able to get. We're now running low. We were giving these posters away at the rally. I was able to get two, but so far one is for myself and another for a friend of mine.













Okay, okay, I was expecting this to be a bit longer, buttttt since I have to leave soon and there are distractions I'll just call it quits or write later.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Two Blog Day Pt.2

::sigh::
This blog is going to be mix of topics.

Good moods only last so long, don't they? I should have figured.

It could just be the jumble of confusion I'm getting from doing homework and studying. Stress can't be healthy for you, not at all. That's all college has done to me this year, probably shaved off a year of my life from stress. I will never tell people not to go to college or some specialty school, but be sure of what you want to do, and just because you enjoy something doesn't mean you'll be happy doing it for an occupation. I've been questioning myself on switching my major, yeah, feels like a waste of $10,000. Yet others say it's just because it's your freshman year and things will get easier and you won't regret it. That's why I'm so hesitant. My major is considered the hardest in college courses, oops, I didn't expect that, I knew it'd be difficult, but the most difficult? I tend not to run away from a challenge and I haven't yet, but...
Hell, one of the only things I depend on for not going insane are weekends!

My hobbies, no...my life of the past 4 years, music and art have suffered from this constant stress machine. I tend to try to explain to others, but not many understand. Gawd, it feels like a waste of potential. Except...I'll never go to school for music or art, it shouldn't be restricted and it never will be for me. Anybody want me to make them a song? ^_-

Damn, haha, I could go on forever just from everything be affected by something else. So many things are relative to to each other. Just like that little sentence is about to bring up the next topic, yes, the last sentence of the music mumbo-jumbo.

I've felt a bit hollow for a long while now. Could it just be from school, it's takeover of my life, my loss of hobbies, my relationship status, aliens maybe? It could just be a nice soup of everything and it seems like the most logical idea at the moment. To blame everything on one thing would be stupid and illogical.

It was a comment somebody said about high school got me thinking "Wow, it's been a year since I've graduated."
You always try to keep everybody you've known throughout high school, in your school or another town, close to you, you promise you're going to always be a friend always going to be there. Well, heh, we always play favorites or sometimes it's just because of our schedules that can screw us up. I mean, just recently in another blog of mine I mentioned how I recently got in touch with an friend I've known for quite awhile. I'll probably keep talking to them for quite awhile now, at least I'll try my best too. Partially because, wow, for some of the people I try to keep in touch with it's almost no use, others get consumed in their life, and then you have a few that you can keep. It's still always going to be a little game, not as big before, of favorites, but I'm still trying to figure out who I enjoy being around and talking to, I think I'm getting closer to knowing.

::scratches head::
I think I covered most of what was going on in my head. This thing is almost near therapeutic, at least it calms me somewhat.

-Fred

I lied...this blog doesn't count.

Lollipop Gourmet (4:19:47 PM): ...do you like a brand new couch or one that's been worn n
Lollipop Gourmet (4:19:48 PM): in
Itsjoshbennett (4:20:56 PM): worn in
Lollipop Gourmet (4:21:32 PM): The queston now is...HOW worn in
Lollipop Gourmet (4:21:45 PM): Not the one that you sink into an abyss hopefully
Itsjoshbennett (4:21:50 PM): not 30 year worn in, two year worn in.
Lollipop Gourmet (4:21:57 PM): Yeahhh
Lollipop Gourmet (4:22:01 PM): Mmmmm
Lollipop Gourmet (4:22:12 PM): Only of my couches are like that. =[
Lollipop Gourmet (4:22:15 PM): one*
Itsjoshbennett (4:22:26 PM): lameburgers
Lollipop Gourmet (4:22:38 PM): ....but gawd is it greattt
Itsjoshbennett (4:22:52 PM): HAHA
Lollipop Gourmet (4:24:44 PM): HAHAHA....the flu shot only protects you from about 40% of all flu viruses this year
Itsjoshbennett (4:24:55 PM): Eh, fuck them.
Lollipop Gourmet (4:25:12 PM): I never get 'em
Itsjoshbennett (4:25:21 PM): Me = love disease.
Lollipop Gourmet (4:25:48 PM): The only shots I have gotten recently were for meningitis and hepatitis
Lollipop Gourmet (4:26:06 PM): Simply because I was going to college
Lollipop Gourmet (4:26:09 PM): 30,000 people.
Lollipop Gourmet (4:26:14 PM): Otherwise, fuck med
Lollipop Gourmet (4:26:14 PM): s
Itsjoshbennett (4:27:33 PM): Haha!
Lollipop Gourmet (4:28:02 PM): Meds destroy your immune system more than a virus will if you can battle it off
Lollipop Gourmet (4:28:12 PM): Will hurt your imm**
Itsjoshbennett (4:28:30 PM): lameeee
Lollipop Gourmet (4:28:36 PM): Our obsession of being so clean hurts us worse
Lollipop Gourmet (4:29:01 PM): Because we protect ourselves from so many colds and such that when we get one it's so much worse
Itsjoshbennett (4:30:09 PM): you should really takes these moments and use them to write blogs.
Lollipop Gourmet (4:30:47 PM): ...because over the past 3 they've been lame?
Itsjoshbennett (4:31:07 PM): or, becuase you get on a rant.


What better do I have to do after a shitty week of useless higher education?
Itsjoshbennett (5:24:39 PM): Cheers!
Lollipop Gourmet (5:25:14 PM): I find it interesting to home in on techniques and sharpen them along with learning new ways to do things...
Lollipop Gourmet (5:25:23 PM): I find it unruly to charge so much
Lollipop Gourmet (5:26:11 PM): It baffles me that in different enviroments you can learn the same trade, or what say you, but, without a piece of paper you're useless
Itsjoshbennett (5:26:32 PM): According to some people, yes.
Lollipop Gourmet (5:26:41 PM): I could be a genius dropout from high school.
Lollipop Gourmet (5:26:47 PM): What does that matter to the next person
Lollipop Gourmet (5:26:50 PM): ...not a thing
Lollipop Gourmet (5:26:55 PM): Sad
Lollipop Gourmet (5:27:07 PM): The arts, do people care about them anymore
Lollipop Gourmet (5:27:08 PM): Nah.
Lollipop Gourmet (5:27:14 PM): ....but everybody loves the radio
Itsjoshbennett (5:27:21 PM): HAHA
Lollipop Gourmet (5:27:34 PM): We love watching movies
Lollipop Gourmet (5:27:50 PM): We enjoy reading books and marveling at the talent of a painter
Lollipop Gourmet (5:28:04 PM): ...but, do we care about it when it doesn't affect us
Lollipop Gourmet (5:28:07 PM): Never
Lollipop Gourmet (5:28:10 PM): Gawd
Lollipop Gourmet (5:28:16 PM): ....I'm ranting
Lollipop Gourmet (5:28:18 PM): ...
Itsjoshbennett (5:28:21 PM): a bit
Lollipop Gourmet (5:28:28 PM): I'm just going to copy paste this in a blog
Itsjoshbennett (5:28:39 PM): haha, go for it.

Two Blog Day Pt. 1

Damn.

I woke up at 12. I'm hardly complaining though, it would have been nicer to wake up a bit earlier so I don't have to stay up all night studying. C'est la vie. -_-

Besides yesterday I've been kinda giddy, I like the happy-go-lucky feeling, so lets hope this lasts awhile. Today I have to study for math, chemistry...okay, and that's pretty much it thankfully! I don't like being behind in my classes, not to add some don't even assist you in your problems other than noting what you did wrong. I mean, sureee, that nice....except I probably did it wrong cause I didn't understand it. Haha, oh well, I'll live through it.

Need to try to make plans for the weekend. Hmmm.
Okay, no more wasted time! I'm off to study...on my day off!

Monday, February 18, 2008

Tuesday is such a weird day to get off.

So, yeah...tuesday is my president's day break, so awkward. Moving on now though.


Waking up late yesterday didn't work out well for me, I ended up not being able to sleep and I'm really tired right now. Other then basically just letting the day unwind I haven't done much other then what the teacher has asked for. I'll try to get things done tomorrow. Time, patience, and sleep. Oddly, I hardly have people piss me off at all, but wow, does it take some balls to insult somebody else and me at the same time, too bad he's being an ass. Karma is a bitch.

Okay, I was hoping I'd be able to get more out of this writing but it's putting me to sleep.

Goodnight.
-Fred

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Ehh..

I probably won't post later tonight, so this will be a short post.

I can't say I've done too much today, I didn't wake up until one in the afternoon. Nonetheless, I woke up and got a glass of orange juice.

I mean, eesh, the only thing I've ate today is pizza.

Oh, yeah, I've talked to a few people too. Can't forget them.

I don't get tomorrow off of school, but I get tuesday off. They tell us there are too many monday holidays. Meh, oh well. I suppose I can deal with it.

I'm going to go do something productive, like take a shower, paint a picture, music, maybe even homework!

Saturday, February 16, 2008

I've gotta do this more often...

The weekend, I could have swore it would have been just another average boring collection of days when I put off homework for no apparent reason.

I'm cool like that.

So, I happen to be on myspace and I go to see who's online. Well, happens to be Kara is online, remind you I hadn't seen her for close to a year before this. So I leave her a comment, trying to get back in touch, nonetheless, throughout more, I ended up getting persuaded to go to a show. Oh, believe me, it wasn't hard for two reasons. One was I was bored, the other because, well, I like my friends. So, I end up calling Josh...


I really didn't like the idea of going alone, so I end up calling Josh seeing if he wants to come along. He's broke, but I offer to pay for him , he agrees.
Reminder: I don't know where the hell I'm going.
I mean, damn, I swear I was going to die tonight. Twice for me did I have deer run out in front of me. Another was some asshole that didn't stop for a light. So we end up getting on route 5, I think we're lost, so I pull off on the only exit I know, the outskirts of Warren...soooo shady. We stop by at this drive thru, no door, damn, so the Indian fellow inside tells us to come to the window. As Josh put it, "...with his thick, angry accent" he helped us. We finally got back to the car and got the hell out of there.

So, we finally get to the show and hang out with Kara, Carly, and Noltan (Gawd, I need to learn techno moves.) Anywho, I've got to admit, I liked the last band probably the best...A for their sarcasm.

Show ends...yeah, I know, too bad eh?
So, I follow Noltan back so I don't get lost, even though I fuck with him the whole way back. Of course, just tagging the blame onto Josh cause it's so much easier, I'm going to blame us getting cold by going to the park completely on him. Capisce? Josh, shush, <3? Good, we better be fine. Don't ask, it's awkward.

Hopefully plans can be made for next week. This was a fun night thanks to them. <3

Peace Out
-Fred

Friday, February 15, 2008

You Call That A Poll?! Gimme a break.

As a news flash too, recent polls show Clinton in the lead in Ohio and Penn. The funny thing is, in the paper it also published how many people were polled. Only 500+ from each state had been polled. How do you consider that a good survey, I sure don't. On top of that it was held Feb. 6 - 12, this was before Obama's sweeps. Stop producing inaccurate information, I don't like being fed lies. I mean, don't get me wrong, I know there are a lot of blue collar jobs here, and much respect to them, but at the same time in an article I read it treated Ohioans as uneducated. I mean, don't get me wrong, Ohio has around 130 higher education facilities, many which are nationally noticed, on top of having the largest college in the U.S.A. Next time, don't even vaguely call this state uneducated.

26...erm, 27 reasons against Hillary

"Three months ago, I would have been more than happy to vote for Hillary Clinton in the general election. Yes I preferred Al Gore at the time but since Gore wasn't running, I felt Edwards was the next best choice. Over time Obama made the better arguments and appeared to be more viable so I switched over. My faith in Obama has been rewarded as he has turned out to be far more substantive, genuine, and inspiring that I initially imagined.

Had Hillary Clinton inspired or had Hillary Clinton run the campaign I thought she was capable of, she could have won me over too and earned my vote on February 5th. She wasn't my first or second choice but I could have been persuaded. Instead, I've been jaded and dissuaded.

Saying goodbye to the Clintons is not an easy thing. Bill Clinton was the first President I was ever eligible to vote for and I voted for him twice, the first time because he campaigned as a populist and the 2nd time because he was not Bob Dole.

In 2000 I was one of the people who thought it was a great idea for Hillary Clinton, despite having never lived in NY and having no experience as an elected official, to be my Senator. Yep, I chose her over several more experienced people who were thinking of running at the time because I realize that experience is lifelong and not tied to how many years you've held a public position. Perhaps I'm also a misoygnist for supporting Hillary Clinton over Mark Green, Carl McCall, or Peter Villone.

I also voted for Hillary in 2006, including in the Democratic primary when 17% of the voters chose Jonathan Tasini. I felt she was the better candidate and deserved to be given the benefit of the doubt on a vote here and there that I disagreed with. Perhaps I'm a misoygnist for supporting HRC over JT.

But this has all changed.

This change did not happen overnight. This change is a result of straw after straw after straw. With the Clintons, it wasn't 3 straws and you're out. I tried to give them every benefit of the doubt, every excuse, every justification. However, now I'm done.

So why am I divorcing them? In some order it was

  1. "I" "I" "I" in virtually every Hillary speech ad nauseum.
  1. Mark Penn. (The incompetent jackass who couldn't get 50% against Bob Dole and took the surest thing {Tony Blair's 3rd term} and turned it into a close race.
  1. Terri McCauliffe and the establishment machine.
  1. "turn up the heat."
  1. Smearing Obama with a kindergarten essay
  1. The Rezko hypocrisy.
  1. The drug use smears.
  1. The attempt to freeze out Iowa students.
  1. The anti-choice smear of Obama in New Hampshire.
  1. The cooked books and $5 million dollar loan.
  1. Playing the race card in South Carolina and elsewhere.
  1. Bill Clinton's fairy tale remark.
  1. Attempts to prevent service workers from caucusing in Nevada.
  1. The cactus tears in NH. (She attacked Obama dried eyed next sentence.)
  1. The mischaracterications of present votes in the Illinois state legislature.
  1. Her failure to apologize for her politically calculating vote on Iraq.
  1. Her equally politically calculating vote on Kyl-Lieberman.
  1. The vicious attempts to play the misogyny card when 99% of Obama voters don't have a sexist bone in their bodies.
  1. HRC's Michigan shenanigans.
  1. HRC's Florida shenanigans.
  1. Bill Clinton's caucus v. primary comments.
  1. The cheesy Wisconsin attack ad while she's in Texas.
  1. Lanny Davis (yep the Lieberman jackass) echoing the Clintons elitist attitude about upper middle class voters "not counting."
  1. Hillary Clinton saying that Patti Solis' decision to step down was Patti's decision when Hillary knows Patti was fired.
  1. Mark Penn's significant states comment telling people in 22 states to go F off.
  1. Hillary attacking Obama this week saying she gives solutions while he gives speeches. (During a speech of course.)

That's 26 straws and there were many others. I can't put a quantitative value on each straw but they added up. And now HRC is unwilling to pledge that she will abide by the will of the voters and accept pledged delegates as the nominee. This is the final straw. In short, she's trying to pull a Scalia and is plotting and scheming to steal an election. Although I believe her attempt will be futile because she will lose every state from here on out (including Ohio and Texas) and although I believe her efforts will be futile because the superdelegates collectively will support the winner among the voters, I am still through with the Clintons. There is no way in hell I'm voting for her ever again.

So how does one move from persuadable to willing to comfortable to accepting to begrudgingly acquiescing to no way in just 3 months? The fault for that lies exclusively with Hillary Rodham Clinton.

Does Hillary Clinton agree with me on most issues? The answer is yes. This is not about ideology. But there are people in politics on BOTH sides of the political aisle who simply take whatever positions they feel they need to take in order to attain and retain power. If a person is corrupt and agrees with me on the issues, that person needs to go and be replaced by someone who is not corrupt and agrees with me on the issues.

There are politicians who are hollow, opportunistic, and selfish. There are politicians who rely on the likes of Karl Rove, Mark Penn, and Lanny Davis, all professional liars and scumbags who spin, manipulate, and deceive. There are people in politics who are calculating and kniving and legislate from this devious mindset. John McCain is such a politician. Hillary Clinton is such a politician. I have no use for either.

What these "straws" have shown me is that Hillary Rodham Clinton is in politics for the power and not for the people or her country. Hillary Clinton has shown me that she is a person of very low character and a person who has very little integrity. Hillary Clinton is a person who has shown me that she will do anything to win even if winning is done unethically or immorally. Hillary Cliton has shown me that she will choose expediency over ethics and is aghast that voters are pummelling her for it at the ballot box as if we "insignificant" little people have no right to question her perceived authority. Well I'm tired of the Clintons trying to micromanage and pigeonhole voters with ridiculous labels like wine v. beer, upper income v. blue collar, Latino v. black, male v. female. What Hillary Clinton does not get is that people are people, not statistics on a spreadsheet handed to you by Mark Penn. I drink beer, I drink wine. I connect with people of all economic classes. I love people regardless of their race and gender. So take these poll driven artificial divisions of yours Hillary Clinton and shove them up your you know what.

The irony of all this hoopla is that if Hillary Clinton had simply done the right things from the beginning and not been blinded by her own hubris and arrogance, she would have been the next President of the United States. A WABC poll from 2006 said 68% of Americans thought she was a strong leader and her positives to negatives were +12. Today she's considered a Shakesperean tragedy at best, a joke at worst. And it's pathetic.

Had Mrs. Clinton simply complimented Obama from the beginning as a good guy, ran an honest campaign, fired her aforementioned jackass campaign strategist back in November, and simply talked about the issues in inclusive turns, she'd be way ahead in pledged delegates right now and a double digit leader in the polls over John McCain. Had she done the right thing and said prior to Super Tuesday that she will respect the voters and pledge to support Obama if Obama was ahead in pledged delegates, she might be the one ahead in pledged delegates right now. Instead she ran a campaign seeking to divide people based on microtrends fed to her by a pollster. But the flaw of microtrends is that people can't be pigeonholed that easily so when you try to pit A against B, you eventually end up pitting A against A.

In life I believe in doing the right thing. I also believe that doing the right thing is good politics in the end even if a current poll says otherwise. Hillary Clinton's flawed morality is that she believes in that which she feels can advance her own cause at a given time. It's the same immoral code that George W Bush, John McCain, Dick Cheney, Ann Coulter, Joe Lieberman, and Rush Limbaugh live by. It's the code of scoundrels and alleycats not leaders and inspirers. I want no part of it.

Hillary Clinton has taken a lifetime of accomplishments and an opportunity for greatness and flushed it all down the toilet. She has soiled her reputation permanently. I don't trust anything about her. Did she volunteer time at the Children's Defense Fund (Marianne Wright Edelman endorsed Obama) because she cared about children or because she thought it would look good on a resume and increase her husband's chances of getting elected? Did she stay married to Bill Clinton because she loved him or because it was a calculating decision that could lead to the US Senate and the Presidency? Does she support universal health care because she cares or because most Americans support universal health care? I just don't know the answers to these questions anymore. (Or maybe I do know the answers but just can't bring myself around to admitting them.)

I am divorcing the Clintons today, never to vote for them or support them again. These are my "divorce" papers. Regretably for the Clintons, I think there are several million Democrats who filed for divorce before me and several million more who are going to file for divorce after me."


I know if I tried posting a link less people would probably read it. This isn't my writing...but I agree with a lot of its points.

Imitation Is The Sincerest Form Of Flattery

Sorry for not posting last night, I didn't get home till about 10 at night. I really didn't want to look at a screen or keyboard for the rest of the night, but, yeah...lets continue.

Yesterday/Valentines Day/Single Awareness Day:

Wow, just wow, alright so maybe it wasn't that great, but hey, I can imagine. I have developed two bad habits lately, one being late for class and the other, speeding. Of course I'm going to blame speeding on the earlier problem, hey, hey....circular reasoning. I've gotta make this sound somewhat intelligent to make my innocence look valid. You can realize also if you read this blog that I rant about politics, little did I know I would ever be near it, so close...and how unexciting this first experience was, maybe I was just being bias. Though, midway through the day I found out Chelsea Clinton was going to be stopping at Akron after she went to C.S.U and O.S.U. Well, at first I was a bit irked, but seizing the opportunity, me and a few people campaigned for Obama, signing people up for the official Akron chapter of Students for Obama and giving them some buttons as well. I figure we probably now have 150+ student from just 2 days, it was a nice feeling. Out of respect, we stopped when Chelsea arrived and despite my wishes for the Clinton's to lose, I chose to take/waste some of my time to listen. She's either shy or has poor speaking abilities, bravo for your attempt, but the crowd of Obama supporters would have been bigger, I'm taking this by the amount of buttons that was given out. I have one, it's cute, I swear...though for the sake of not getting in an argument I took it off in front of my dad.

Today-ish:

Anywho, I have a bit of homework to do this weekend, I'll probably try to get it done soon so I can enjoy my weekend to some extent. You know, have a bit of a life, it's cool. I'm not quite sure WHAT I'm going to do, nonetheless I'll probably end up visiting/hanging out with somebody or thing. I've been wanting to go to the hookah bar for probably close to the past month now, a lot of people I know though are hesitant about smoking, so, it's rough trying to find people that are willing. It's still early, so I'll update this tonight, because school was simply just a blank slate today.

Out of respect of The Innovation Of Silence posting my blog on his, I will do the same for him. His blogs are often quite interesting and is a good friend of mine. Despite my often, erm....bitchyness.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Happy Valentines Day

Today, well, almost today...nevermind, lets just say it's V-Day. I haven't had to buy somebody anything for the past two years! Woo, hah. No, I'm not a tight-ass, do you want a dozen roses? Come onnnn, they look and smell good, plus they're overpriced just for this holiday. Which brings this up, $50!? I need a greenhouse.

So, is it me, or has anybody else heard that our national money deficiency is double what it was last year, mmmm, I feel a year of....more debt, cheers anyone? I mean, I'm pretty sure you'd have to take a couple risks to fix this problem, so...why don't we? I suppose some people would say because of the war on terror....::yawn::
1.) You can protect yourself from terrorist.
2.) You cannot control millions of terrorist.
I mean, hah, Iraq was better off with Sudamn Hussien, maybe.

WHAT'S THIS WHOLE THING ABOUT THE MLB STEROID SCANDAL!? Jesus christ, shoot me, they just HAVE to make it national news and in congress on top of that, this is pathetic. I mean, cause of course I too have 5 year old syringes laying around. All I need now is GHB. Jokiiinggggg, I'm not going to rape anybody, sheesh. I'm not THAT desperate.

Of course many know I'm a Obama supporter, well, good news for other supporters for him as well. Hillary Clinton has to win near 60% of all the delegates of all the next contests to get a certian nod for the bid. The chances are slim and with him in the lead, superdelegates will be more likely to flock to him. Even now, my grandparents believe he'll be the next president.

...okay, so maybe I really don't have too much to talk about, deal with it. Still pondering on taking a break from school.

Oh, here's a couple old poems from my myspace.

Let's take this barge
to a sea so far.
Let this sea swallow us whole
and succumb to it as full.
Let this stellar night become memory
and we'll catch fireflies.
Let ourselves rest
and rid of these pests.
Now my memory is faltering,
I can hardly recall.
The smell of sea water
and the waves' lull.
Oh, but how we blushed
like fireflies so flushed.



On your cheeks,
the color of amber.
Feelings feeding in a frenzy.
Don't stray away.
Feelings may be bleak.
Nor will they last forever.
So lets lay.
We're in no hurry.

Run away butterflies,
more are sure to come.
Shed your love,
and we can soar high.



Resemble me in an utmost opposing way
You falter so few, your simplicity is bliss.
Can not we foretake a walk and sway?
Kiss, kiss me, the defiance of such a potent kiss.
Your sound is not of cacophony.
Refer to such a place of confidence.
Silence me, peace for now to stay.
Angelic is what portrays to a sense
For one to feel as jovial as a fool.
Imagination is a perception.
Memories are a refreshment
A picture is a pool.
Stay here, as your station.
And not only for a session.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

I need to keep THIS updated...

I deleted my old post from two months ago. It's been that long since I've wrote in here, so I'd rather reflect on the present and future.

I transported two of my political blogs from other sites, I may transport more of them with due time.

Anywho, I'll go over how my day went, I need to get some sleep, sorry.


Tuesdays are days I usually dread, I have to stay at school until at least 9:30 on most night because of my less fortunate scheduling. I was in chemistry today, mind you this room was at least 85 degrees without the additional body heat, I was dying, well, nonetheless it put me to sleep. I ended up having a some stranger wake me up telling me school had been canceled due to the snow. Oh, believe me, my day was much better from then on!

Oh yeah, me and Josh, well, more so Josh, I won't take credit for this, but we've been talking about his film ideas and props. The more and more we talk about it, the more I want to break off from school, even be it just say....one fall semester. Even though my participation in his ideas may be a full fledge appearance or one that doesn't involve me, I'd enjoy being around it. It's just a part of me that resonates that I never grasped earlier.
Not too add, I'm probably going to blow some of meh money on art & music supplies this weekend. Who knows, I could end up spending $50 - $300+, it's an obsession, erm...

When I got home today, I probably passed out at least 3 times, partially the reason why I'm up right now. When I did wake up I didn't have much time for a fucking thing, I had to start on homework more less right away, that's not without turning on the news about zeee election. =]

Obama has now won 10 straight and is now leading in all polls. I'm ecstatic. Hell, even my grandparents are questioning/leaning to voting for him. I forgot my dad was perhaps the most racist out of my family, yes, even more so than my grandparents, what are the odds? Nonetheless, I mentioned my excitement to him about Obama's wins tonight and about the only two words I heard from him there on was "Fucking nigger. Kids shouldn't be allowed to vote." I try to tell him that Obama is even half white, but according to my dad he's still a nigger. ::sigh:: I'm really not worrying about it, I keep myself educated on most things he finds useless to participate in, one being elections, he never votes.

Lately I've been attracted to so many people. I think I may be getting lonely? I don't know. I'll admit, some type of relationship wouldn't hurt. It's been since my last posts in December since I've worried about this. Oh well, I'm just going to blame it on hormones.

I'll try to keep up with this a bit more often from now on.

My Politcal Upkeeping...

As far as many of you know, I support Barack Obama in '08. I'm never going to shove anything down your throat though. I may engage in a friendly debate, but never get angry at me, it's just a civil exchange of ideas with a bit of hope for persuasion towards any of you that may have differing thoughts.

I've been urged by family members to support republicans instead, but in these 8 years, under much which was a republican president along with a congress/senate as well I've learned I'd rather take a chance and go out on a limb. Much would say I'm just a young juvenile kid that doesn't know much, that I'm just going with the crowd. I clearly am not doing any of this, just last year I had supported republicans for another white house term, but then you do some digging and find things out. Not out of ego, but out of experience in my debates with others I am perhaps one of the few people I know that tend to keep up with politics, in my favor or not, trying not to make everything I say bias. I'd rather not lead myself blindlessly into anything, or believing somebody without questioning.

Even people in my generation often get angry at me for introducing facts and history into a debate, often not in their favor. Just this past week I was dicussing with a democrat why he supports Clinton, his response was "He seems shady. He never says the same thing."
My automatic response, though not what I exactly said was does he expect ANY candidate to be like a record player, being able to repeat the same exact thing they said, 100%, from 1/2 year, or however long ago!? Seriously, think of what you are saying, question yourself, question others. I mean this in the most respectful way, some people I have debated with I bet I could hand them a revolver, empty, play russian roulette and hear a gun fire in the distance would think they've been shot. I'm not saying people are unintelligent, but inconsiderate and jump to assumptions & conclusions.

To be continued...

Barack Obama & The Kennedy's

Caroline Kennedy's support towards Obama is in this quote:
"Over the years, I've been deeply moved by the people who've told me they wished they could feel inspired and hopeful about America the way people did when my father was president," she wrote in the Sunday's edition of The New York Times. "That is why I am supporting a presidential candidate in the Democratic primaries, Barack Obama."

Also from another News Source, Ted Kennedy is willing to support Barack as well:
"ABC News' Rick Klein Reports: Senator Ted Kennedy, D-Mass., will endorse Barack Obama's presidential bid on Monday in Washington, a source close to Kennedy tells ABC News"

I have found out, after Obama's stunning victory that Caroline and Ted Kennedy are now supporters of one of the most truthful canidates we have had in a long time, Barack Obama.

Before I continue on, Obama's victory in South Carolina was amazing, with him achieving a 55% victory in a three way race. That's amazing. He is a movement, he has motivation, he is the future.

I would wish for Clinton supporters, which I know a few, to please take a look at Barack Obama as well as look at the flip-flopping that Hillary has done just to try to scrounge up votes. Barack Obama has hardly even touched his campaign. He's truthful and that's what we need, not the overdone manipulation you get from other canidates.

I would adore for republicans to look at Barack Obama as well. Though it may be asking a lot, but please look at the choices you have for your republican vote. Romney the economist and McCain the warhawk. Though, don't get me wrong, I respect the republicans very much and if Barack Obama is not on the ballot this november, a republican will see my vote.

*I forget her name, but related to the Kennedy's, California's First Lady vowed her support to Obama.